Some wounds never heal

This was written on August 8, 2009 when my dad and I were having problems. It is short but not so sweet, anyways, here it is

Can we make this last a little bit longer?

Cause happiness was starting to feel good

Can you leave just a little bit later?

Cause we can’t afford to be left alone

Can we yell just a little bit quieter?

Cause I don’t want to hear it

Can we cry a little less tears?

Cause I am sick and tired of pretending

Can we calm all our fears?

Cause I don’t want to come home and find you gone

Can’t you see we need you here?

Cause I don’t think you see or feel anything

I don't want to want you, but I hate the way I do, I can't help the way I feel for you

I need to stop doing this…….

I need to stop falling for guys I can’t have

I need to stop wishing and getting my hopes up

I need to stop being jealous

I need to stop reading into things when they probably aren’t true

I need to stop, it hurts and I hate it

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&&then I think I am finally over him when he looks at me and smiles

He messes with my hair

He does the small things that piss me off but in reality I absolutely adore

He makes me blush, I don’t even realize it

He seems to be looking around but I swear he looks at me, just sometimes, it may be a figment of my imagination but I can still hope

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I feel like a high schooler again with a crush on the senior or the most popular guy in school

I look for him and look away really quickly if I think he knows I am looking for him

I get disappointed when I don’t actually see him

It’s like a sick obsession, but not really, more like a silly school girl crush

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I hope this gets over and done with soon

I hope I can get over these feelings

I hope that I can……..I don’t know, I don’t know what I hope….

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I know what I wish…….

I wish that he would do something spontaneous

I wish that he would kiss me, even just once……for a second

I wish that we can go out

I wish I could be 21…..that would be fun

I wish that I can wipe that stupidly attractive smirk off his face sometimes

I wish he could feel the way I feel........

What's a girl gotta do to get you out of her mind?